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Circular Mill EP

by Actor|Observer

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1.
You represent everything that I’ve ever fought against I spend my days hoping the crowd can spot the difference But with each day I start to wonder who’s at most offense Am I just like you?
 Will I ever get through?
 Our hopes and dreams it seems are such a fucking paradox But we play along and sing the song because it’s all we’ve got 
Make sure it’s packaged right
 And in the proper light Sell yourself or you’ll fall by the wayside 

It’s such a shame to see them churning out aggression
 For nothing more than a fashionable obsession 
Isn’t that what drove us away in the first place? 
It’s not ironic It’s fucking toxic
 We tell ourselves We are not salesmen We tell ourselves We have no price Still we can’t sleep at night 
I wanna tell it like it is We’re falling victim to the same machine The same mistakes And those who will survive Will have to compromise But I’m gonna tell it like it is
 You say that you are weaving a story? Oh spare me I know your kind And your self-righteous glory Our art is suffering And now everything is goin’ to shit 

I will
I will not I will not bend I will not break 

Can you recall the first time That you heard a song and it changed your life? I’d like to say that I do But feelings like that seem far and few From this point onward I curse all concepts Of art that costs me My own conscience It doesn’t have to be this way
 All is not lost
2.
Every autumn comes to fall Nostalgia brings a thoughtful calm Where are you? I check the traces of our past They echo in a broken glass I’ve lost my view
 Then I see you once again Though far away you’re still my friends But for how long? I’m sorry I know that I've gone To focus on the path I’m on Please accept my songs 

Take the love I wasted Don’t let it get away from you (Don’t ever lose touch) I admit I miss it But I’ve become so far removed (Don't ever lose touch)

 Phone calls offer no relief I feel like I’m the village thief Just take and never give But now when I visit home it’s not the same It never will be again You’ve all left me too Everybody says that’s just how it works People grow up and learn to shirk it off But I meet new people every day They keep all my old friends at bay And push my former self away 
Take the love I wasted
 Don’t let it get away from you (Don’t ever look back) I admit I miss it But I’ve become so far removed
 (Don't ever look back)
3.
Dead Weight 03:54
Does the end justify the means? Or is this just a means to an end? For the better part of 20 years I reached with hope And held my thoughts and feelings close But when real life hits you hard It makes you question What matters most Just keep saying It’s worth what you’re paying But if it all came down right now How much would you really have? 

It’s welling up again That reoccurring feeling when All choices made til now Make it so damn uncertain how I’m supposed to get myself out 
What am I trying to prove? That my life can be of more use Than simply paying off debts and dues? I’ve got to get My fucking head on straight This constant wavering Is nothing but dead weight Is it as clean cut As do or die? Honest struggle or Submissive lie? I feel it setting in The weight of my own convictions

 Just keep saying It’s worth what you’re paying But if it all came down right now How much would you really have? Im being muscled out By the gears of life I’m being held down By my own device Does the end justify the means?
 Or is this just a means to an end?
4.
Prescribe the constellation 
There is no science to it 
Yet you find it so easy to swallow A quick archetype and a broad definition These foundations
Lie within us all

You’ve been drifting around
So aimless, so aimless
Living without control
Your kind are so provincial 

I’ve seen you all bow before the sun
A march of slugs into an open beer

You’ve been drifting around
so aimless, so aimless
Living without control
Your kind are so provincial
The only thing in your way
(Cataract lens)
Is your faith

So pay attention Watch us open up the sky We peel back the layers And show you the insides Don't close your eyes now 
Bugs trapped in the amber of each moment I am the messenger (Say it now)
We can’t go on like this Excuses are your weakness Your failures are your own (Say it now)
We die alone 
Pay attention Watch us open up the sky So pay attention Watch us open up the sky We peel back the layers And show you the insides Don't close your eyes now We are all the fool

Where you and I met
There’s no alignment
Mass is all there is
Bending the space in between

And that space is yours You dictate it’s worth
Stop kidding yourself And let go of the curse Pay attention Watch us open up the sky We peel back the layers And show you the insides Don't close your eyes now
5.
Golden Torch 04:29
I watched you fall apart Not you your body, just your heart While the opposite was happening inside of him
 The sun went out that day But his warmth will never fade You wear it on your face every single day
 I never know just what to do With all that pain inside you Will this help? Of course it won’t But since we cannot let go I hope you always know
 He lived the fullest life Still doesn’t make it right But I know that you Will carry his light I’ll help you through the night Never give up this fight Because I have never Loved so much in my life All anyone can do And all anyone can say Is just “be there” But you and I both know That words and presence Are just as frail As skin and bone With light Breath life Back into those we miss most (You’re not the only one Who wants to be alone) So when you see me every night And when you hear me sing this way Please know I’m only trying my best To keep alight your flame 
I’m sorry if this is too much 
Or if I’m doing it all wrong But it's all that I know how to do Consider me the midnight oil I serve to keep you on He lived the fullest life Still doesn’t make it right But I know that you Will carry his light I’ll help you through the night Never give up this fight Because I have never Loved so much 
I’ll carry you through hallways Past the ICU and oxygen tanks All the dead will raise their heads And get out of their beds and sing “I’ve never felt this light before! 
Is that an angel in your arms Or something more?”
 And it’s you my love His golden torch And I will keep fueling I’ll never give up on you
6.
She slid off her ring and laid it gently on the table, then turned to whisper in my ear. She said, “Kiss me quickly, dear. Lest conscious catch up to me.” I took a breath, began to protest… But how could I refuse, with her lips on my neck, her dress on the bedside? She had a husband, a home, and a family, but I’m a selfish and uncaring man. Oh, I’m just a man. Then he came to me, carrying nothing but his passion and crawling on his knees. But still I would not speak, ‘til he summoned all his strength and he rose to his feet. He turned, locked eyes with me, and said: “You’re more a monster than a man. And I will do to you what you did to my household.” I stood unmoved like the side of a mountain, But what are mere rock and stone against such a storm? I spoke.

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released August 2, 2013

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Actor Observer from Boston, MA have become a well-respected musical force throughout New England. Their dynamic sound and electric live performance are charged with a visceral sincerity and vulnerability that many audience members find refreshing in the current age of post-hardcore. Their newest album "Songs For The Newly Reclusive" may be their most powerful offering yet. ... more

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